Hi gabdi what addiction do you want my experience of the cocaine or the codiene?
The cocaine he was using very heavily for a year then and still large relapses every 8 weeks or so.
The codiene he started taking for headaches he got up to taking 65 tablets a day I honestly have no idea how he is still standing with either addiction.
He seems to have a high resistance to all drugs tbh with the coke he had done upto 3G a day with seemingly little effect.
It’s hard to love someone with an addiction because with that comes the lies, debt and lack of affection because that drug is so much stronger than the love u share as hard as that is to admit. He tells me once he is craving the coke (stressful day or whatever makes the crave come on) he thinks of nothing else not home, me, the kids, he’s life nothing but the gear until he has it and it’s gone then the guilt sets in, the fear of telling me he has relapsed (which he know he will have to tell me eventually because I now handle all the financial aspects) the guilt and fear that he may lose me and the kids because how much more can I take!? It makes him a very selfish person while he is using, he is quick to anger, always stressed and always disrespectful of what he actually has, however I stick by him because I know under it all he is a decent loving and kind man he just has many issues. I’m a strong woman and I love him madly and deeply so while I can be as strong as I am I’ll always have he’s back as long as he is trying to stay clean that is all I ask of him