Aright mate.. i am exactly the same as you. I have a gf and 4 kids between us both. One each from another relationship. I work hard and again. My kids have everything we need and were going turkey in 5 week.
But my story is.. its been about 8 years once every couple of week i have it. Not as much as you. But that doesnt matter one bit. Ive stopped for a month.. 2 month and 3 month. And sometimes once a week.
I hate the stuff. Its everywere.. moving wont help you? Havent you seen poltergeist? Lol No matter where you go it will follow you. You have be strong as afamily unit.
And its easier said than done. Ive lapsed this weekend. And im absolutely gutted. Im on a comedown and its not shifting i feel so depressed from it. I hate myself for what im doing.
This stuff is everywere.
So when are you getting it? In the morning for the day ahead ? Or at night? How much are you having a week?
What ive learned for to beat it or help.. ill share with you but i cant say nowt since ive lapsed. And you probably know anyway.
But delete all dealers nums out your phone, delete face book and all social media. Dont drink any alcohol.
Change your daily routine around. Read books, yoga, gym, walks. Anything different to your normal routine.
I watch and listen to cocaine recovery stories on you tube and podcast.
Pocket rehab is a great app to download were addicts talk to each other.
Also watch some videos on you tube on louise clarke on crack cocaine part 1 2 3
Shes really helpfull and knows how to beat it and has helped lots of people.
I know what you mean about the kids and that and its a horrible thought. But just dont give up on quitting and stay positive. I hope you sort it. Message me anything if u need to.