Hi Coconut,
I am so sad to read your post and to see what a horrible time you and your boys have been having. I’m so sorry that you are going through this alone and wanted to let you know about The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that helps people in similar situations to you and your family. We offer help to people dealing with the impact of a family member’s addiction.
We have trained people who are experienced in listening, would understand what you are going through, and offer support to help you find a way forward.
You can contact The Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Wishing you and your family all the best.