Hi,
Thanks for sharing your story. This must be very hard for you emotionally and it’s not surprising that you are suffering from anxiety. May be you would like to talk through some of the issues you are facing with someone who would listen, understand and would help you to find a way forward.
If you contact The Icarus Trust, a charity that offers support to people going through what you are going through, I can put you in touch with one of our trained people that you could talk with.
You can contact The Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.