Hi Amski,
Thanks for sharing your story. This site is very supportive and you get some really good advice from the people on here.
If you would like some more support for yourself please contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people having to deal with the impact of a family member’s addictive behaviour.
We have trained people you could talk with. They are very experienced and would understand what you’re dealing with, and talking might help you to decide how to go forward.
You can contact The Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.