Thank you both for replying it really means the world to me that someone has taken time out to message back. My daughter is also 2 and very hard work at times so the thought of withdrawals is scaring the crap out of me because apart from the 3 days a week I work she’s always with me. I’ve been around addiction my entire life up until 9 years ago when my dad passed ( he was an alcoholic) and now I finally understand why my mum was worried that I’d end up with an addiction. I know If I don’t stop soon it will probably end up killing me somehow. I can’t even go to my doctor because I shouldn’t of been taking the tablets in the first place. I got down to 4 a day a few months ago and instead of dropping to any lower I ended up relapsing. I will definitely be stocking up on the things mentioned ready to taper off them. I will get off them! I know I can do it it’s just actually doing it. I keep saying to myself that I’ll never have the things I really want as long as I’m this mess of a person. I want to buy a house and I want more children so there’s so many incentives. Thank you both xx
