DNAnon & addictoolong
Thank you so much for replying!
I woke up today to a powerful message on my phone..
“Many of life’s failures are people who did not realise how close to success they were when they gave up”
It got me thinking I’ve lived a hellava life abusing alcohol and painkillers and the fun stopped a long time ago until I was merely existing..
Let’s see where being clean and sober will take me.. I have no other options really.. If I drink chaos follows guaranteed! I think things are bad now.. wow it will be a lot worse and all for one night of drinking.. If I go back to painkillers the only thing for me is the wooden box as my body will
Not tolerate that abuse again..
I’m attending N/A and AA meetings regularly and plan on getting to one this afternoon to keep my head fresh and remember how I have no right now to abuse alcohol or pills.. That right has been taken away by my disease of addiction and to feed it would be insane.
I never thought I could be clean and sober, that scared the crap out of me but here I am, doing it, feeling low but it can only get better!
We all got this!
Love and positive thoughts!
xAx