I feel like I’m reading my own thoughts reading this…
I’ve found over the years I’ve sent myself mad second guessing his every move and not wanting let my guard down so much so I think I’ve gone too far in my own head I need to learn to trust again (altogether) however I was in long relationship when I was younger and was treated so bad I already have trust issues…
What I’ve learnt is that if he does do it and isn’t honest with me there’s really nothing I can do about it but once I realise we’re not moving forward then go from there…
I’ve tried to be a bit calmer with him in the hoping he might open up to me when he’s struggling and ask for help as apposed to hiding it
Only you will know your limits and what to do going forward…
Hopefully things work out for you and your partner 🙂