[joemily]

I know obviously we don’t understand how difficult it must be for them etc etc but I feel like he gets annoyed with me when I don’t trust him and when I think he’s lying to me but then I think you’ve done that not me.. if I double and triple check that he will pick me up from somewhere it’s only because he’s let me down so many times..

I think we have a long road ahead of us and last night I thought I had to call it quits because it’s breaking me and now I’m not sure.

I love him and I want to help and support him but at what cost..

This is what I have to work out and only really I can do that, just helps to talk to other people in similar positions so I don’t feel quite as alone.