Hello and thank you for your kind words of support.
Since I made my initial post I have made a self referral to my local NHS IAPT provider. Although I have to now wait out until they get back to me which seems like an eternity. I feel like I’m stuck in limbo. As I mentioned in my previous post I have been looking for private counselling. I googled councillors in my area and there are loads. It’s hard to decide who to pick but it’s highly influenced by what I can afford. I know I can’t put a price on my mental health but I need to find the right one?!
In terms of my other half I’m not sure how she’s handling my revelation. She has been very supportive over the past weekend when I was going cold turkey and feeling lower than a snakes belly. But she doesn’t seem to want to discuss it or bring it up in conversation. Maybe it’s just her way of dealing with it. She’s definitely the stronger one in our relationship but she suggested talking to a professional as apparently a non judgemental individual who doesn’t know me would be better to talk to?