That’s exactly what I’ve been telling myself the last 3 years! I totally understand you. I know full well I can manage off 4 tablets a day and I done it on Monday I took 2 when I woke up and I put a timer on my phone and I lasted 6 hours before taking 2 more but that night was a really bad nights sleep and I woke up restless and I couldn’t stay still. I’m going to buy Nytol to see if it helps keep me asleep. Tuesday and today I’ve taken 10 tablets. I have 66 tablets left and there’s absolutely no way I can get my hands on anymore so it’s a mix between I want to stop, I have to stop and I haven’t got a choice but to stop. I’ve made a taper plan and if I keep at it I should be down to 1 tablet a day by the beginning of July. I think I’ve mastered what to do ???? on Monday I got up had the tablets and straight after breakfast I kept busy by getting myself ready then taking my daughter to nursery and I didn’t seem to crave anymore tablets like I usually do (I normally crave more about an hour after the first 2) but on Tuesday I took the tablets and I just chilled out so keeping busy is definitely the best way to keep the cravings away. The withdrawals are really worrying me, I can deal with the hot and cold sweats but it’s the feeling of I can’t be bothered to do anything. The only way I can describe it is I feel as if I’m about 20 stone heavier and I physically struggle to walk up the stairs because of the aches which is worrying because I’m only 28. The restlessness is awful as well but I’m thinking maybe calms will help so I’ll be buying them tomorrow along with Nytol. What we both need to think about is if we don’t stop now it will end up killing us some way. We could overdose because the amounts we’re taking are no longer satisfying or our kidneys will be damaged. We can both do this! I keep repeating in my head that I don’t care how I feel tomorrow I will only take 4! My plan for tomorrow is to take 2 in the morning, 1 after 6 hours and then 1 just before bed. I really don’t know why I’ve let it get this far! I’ve been around addiction my entire life up until my Dad passed 10 days before my 21st Birthday (he was an alcoholic) I’ve seen what addiction does to a family and now I’ve got myself in that exact position my dad was in. I would really appreciate it if we could message back and for on here as a support to each other and we’ll beat it together.
