If I’m wishing for anything it’s that I could go back in time and go to the doctors for my headaches instead of self medicating with dihydrocodiene. I don’t know why I haven’t been able to do it for my daughter because that should be enough to stop but it hasn’t been but I guess that’s what addiction does. I also know that I definitely want another baby but until I stop taking them I can’t but not even that has been enough. I’d be £470 a month better off if I’d never taken them but I’m now paying back a loan I had to pay my last credit card off and the credit card I’ve run up because of buying them. You’re not almost as bad because you’re taking the step to get rid of the addiction so you’re better and we will do this. I wish I could go cold turkey but I’m not that strong and I’ve tried it before and it was torture physically and mentally. If you feel strong and determined enough try going cold turkey and see how you manage. I went down to 4 a day a few months ago but where I went wrong was I was scared to drop anymore because of the withdrawals and went back to my usual 10-12 a day. I slept fine the last time I done it but when I had 4 on Monday it was a crap nights sleep. I’ve now got calms and Nytol to see if they help tonight. Today I lasted 6 hours and I’ve just taken 1 more and I’ve got 1 left before bed but I might just see if I can manage 3 and see what happens. How are you getting on today?
