I’m always in the background Georgia, watching whats going on, hoping for good news with everyone.
It is hard to cope and it feels like that for a long time. I’m not gonna lie. When you love someone…….
It feels like you have been humiliated in the eyes of everyone that knows you both and embarrassed. I can tell you now the humiliation and embarrassment will fade if you tell people the truth of what has happened. I know, embarrassment and humiliation, but it works. Don’t hide what has happened. He has made this a mess not you. You are the one that has tried to clean this mess up, you alone. He can only help himself and we all know that. It is just a shame that it feels like a waste of time and effort. It has not been because you can hold your head up high and say you have done everything you possibly can. You can be there when he wakes up, in the background. If he goes off the rails he does. You will be there if needed, that is if you still want to yourself when you have healed a little. You have taken all you can for the moment and you cannot make yourself ill from this.
Take each day at a time. Small steps. Try, just try to keep busy. It is hard but you need to stay strong and look after yourself for a while. When he wakes up you will be ready for the battle that is ahead xx