It is awful when you are being told it’s your fault they are using and not being supportive enough. It is not your fault, you didn’t make him and you are there supporting him now. But don’t wait for any credit, just know that you are doing all you can.
Hiding the truth from folk and putting a smile on your face just makes you anxious. Treading on egg shells too wondering what abuse is going to come your way. It is the cocaine talking though, not the nice bf he was before.
You are right, just a bit of bad luck, start drinking more often then join in with your friends that take all the time. It is mind altering. Going from a loving, wonderful husband in my case to an absolute arsehole.
But it is everywhere. You can’t go out without it being shoved under your nose. No one chooses the shit life that comes after the recreational use of this drug because that’s what it is seen as, recreational and is not addictive. If only they knew the consequences of some of our lives afterward.