do you know what, it is fine. I just have to accept the fact that he is now gone and leading the life he wants with cocaine and other women or woman and my kids now come from a broken home because of his choices in life, as he said he came back to try and get feelings for me but he couldn’t but he was still using cocaine and i was too boring for him as i can’t compete with it, so maybe he is better off starting a fresh again and lying to his new partner or maybe she takes it too? he did also say “do you really think we can comeback from this because i don’t think we can”. His family have also came no where near me and my kids since it happened.
And to top it off, he cried to me on the phone the other day when i was asking him for answers about his feelings towards me and he said i was draining him and that he tried to kill himself last week because i am not allowing him to see kids, and he said he had to go because he was in a meeting but he was seen half hour later by my friend driving in his car laughing as he was on the phone to someone. He also cut me off the both times i spoke to him and i called him back and he said he didn’t know what happened but i think he was recording my call to use in court