As far as I know, he’s never been suicidal from it, but I guess I only know what I’ve been told by him or others and he hid it from me for years (and is still downplaying it now).
But there has definitely been changes in him, he’s become more and more selfish over the years and less interested in socialising together and began going out every single weekend (I thought just drinking at time) despite the arguments it caused and the number of times I told him it upset me because I felt like he was constantly putting friends above me and the kids, now I suspect it was actually coke and the friends he was with were just part of that but not actually what it was about.
I told him last night that I think he has a problem, he pulled a funny face as if I was mad but he didn’t actually try and deny it.
We’ve been living apart now for almost a year although only “not been together” this last month when he started seeing a younger girl he works with (I’m pretty sure she also does it or is at least far more ok with it than I am).
I’m kind of just accepting that that is who he is now, he won’t get help if he can’t see he has a problem but I’m just so worried something will happen to him and how that will affect our children.
Is your husband trying to get help?