wow adam, honestly, seek help before its too late mate.
youll lose everything honestly, your wife, your businesses..
you need to want help, you need to get help – you cant just cut down and be a social sniffer, youre an addict and its best to accept that and seek help.
Dan is right, you need to eliminate it all from your life, you need to go to a doctor.
honestly, act before its too late..