Hi Carolyn,
You have been an amazing mum to your son and it must be so hard to see the impact his drinking has on him and you!
I’m so glad that you have a supportive family around you and glad that you are using this blog as everyone is so supportive on here.
If you feel it would be helpful to talk with us at The Icarus Trust please contact us. We are a charity that supports people that are going through similar situations to yourself and we have trained and experienced people you could talk with.
You can contact The Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.