I know, its so draining as well isnt it reading up on it? it consumes your life.. it leaves me baffled and i just dont get it.
He wouldnt do that when off of the coke – it honestly just makes them selfish, no empathy, it completely changes them , when they’re on that road honestly not even your children will come first – if he is on the stuff, youll soon know as he will end up hitting rock bottom.
oh sinus issues is a huge sign too and the angry outbursts – it really ruins your mental health. Ive cried my heart out and begged before, put everything on the line and STILL he would choose the drugs and for me that was hard to swallow.. but now hes not on it hes the loveliest person – it baffles me.
bless you – its hard when children are involved, the thing is, even if you did get back together the chances of him relapsing going back to this is quite likely.
It is hard i agree – i was the same i have never been addicted to anything.. so i didnt understand, it is a disease though.. i dont think he can control what hes doing – he probably doesnt want to hurt you and one day he will hugely regret this im sure.
he will have to hit rock bottom to get help – as at the moment hes probably just chasing the buzz but it wont end well.
good luck to you … feel free to msg anytime – i completely understand and im sorry youre going through this, its sh*t! xx