I’m sorry to read your post but you will get good support from the people on this blog.
If you would like more support please contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that provides help for people who are being affected by the addiction of a family member. You might find it helpful to talk with one of our trained and experienced people who would understand what you are coping with and may be able to help you find a way forward.
You can contact The Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.