Thanks for posting. I can see that you are finding it hard to know what to do next and you might like to talk with someone who would understand how you are feeling.
if so please contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that offers support to people dealing with the impact of another’s addiction. talking with one of our trained people might help you to see how to go forward.
You can contact The Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.