Hey thanks for responding. My husband tried to cut down but he would slowly build it back up again to a massive binge which would usually end with a massive argument, I have called the police on him a few times as he started to get aggressive, he has never hit me but I was scared it was getting to that point as he seemed out of control. When I think back and remember the bad times, I am glad I left and I realise I need to stay away but when I miss him, I start feeling sad for what we had. I mean i spent 13 years of my life with this man, we have 2 children, our social circle was there, we had a home. But then I quickly stop myself and remind myself of the times when he spent all our money, when he got aggressive, when he broke promises. And then I start feeling angry again. I keep going round and round in circles. Missing him then hating him. I have told him many times he needs professional help, I just hope he finally sees sense and reaches out. I know this cant continue, I need to move on with my life for the sake of myself and my kids. I cry and wish I wasnt going through this, it’s the most difficult thing ever.
