Got to see my daughter today for 5 hours which was amazing. Went to the park, then beach, out for lunch, followed by a nap in the pram, then back to the park. She didn’t want me to take her in my car which was awkward but guess expected as use of coke had been there. Haven’t touched the stuff for 5 days now. Her parents are very negative towards me which is a shame as they loved me alot before. Made an appointment at the doctors for Wednesday coming to sort mental health and addiction. Nearly got some last night but managed to get past it which made me sick amd shaking but felt proud for doing it. Actually slept before midnight and didn’t sweat like a pig either. Got alot to prove and a long way ahead but I’m feeling postive about it but of course still get very negative at times with hatred towards myself for ruining everything I had. Broke the news to my gran parents which are like my parents to me and they took it okau as they said everyone deserves a second chance and will do anything to support me. Told my dealers and close friends too. Hopefully I will update this post 2 times a week with positive messages and progression. I thank every one who has taken there time to help and advise and share similar experiences
