Thanks for your post. This is a difficult situation for you and you might to contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that provides support for people having to deal with a partner’s addiction. We have trained and experienced people that you might like to talk with and may be they can help you to find some answers.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
I hope this helps. Good luck.