Sorry for the late reply I’ve been trying to work through stuff. I decided to leave him and carry on by myself as I couldn’t see things changing and his attitude towards me was disgusting. Something I don’t need whilst going through the stress and being pregnant.
Anyways within the past week we have been chatting and met up a few times and he’s told me he’s not touched anything for 3 weeks which I didn’t really believe but went along with it. I come to his house last night to find a couple of empty packets lying around. When I asked him about them he come up with a quick excuse and brushed it off. I didn’t push as I knew he was lying but was hoping he would come clean eventually. I’ve been talking to him all today and he’s been very snappy and short which I only know too well, he’s craving it. Tonight I’ve been on his phone (which I know is wrong of me) but it all confirms it, the last time he took it (which I know of) was Saturday and I’m assuming that’s what the empty packets were. I’m just back to square one again just as I begin to try I just get knocked down again. I’m just confused because I don’t know why he’s clinging on to me. I’ve told him I can’t put myself and the baby through this if it carrys on and he’s lying to keep me in his life I just don’t understand why because it all comes out in the end the more time I spend with him he can’t hide it. He even had me apologize to him on Saturday because I was paranoid about him talking it and he reassured me he wasn’t and he understands that I’m hurt because he’s made me this way. I just don’t know if he sees it as a game. I’m just struggling to understand