I’m sorry you’re going through this honestly, I cant imagine being pregnant and dealing with that. He is manipulating you – he will want you by the way, but he will want that too, and he will say anything that you want to hear, and he will manipulate and lie – regardless of you putting it all on the line he will do it again. The rude snappiness you’re definitely right is the come down/ cravings – its an emotional relapse.
I know its so hard to understand, i used to question myself and blame myself, it drove me mad.
I dont think he will see it as a game, its an addiction after all – its a disease and it physically takes hold of you, the sad/frustrating this is, a lot of people don’t get clean and they ruin everything and choose the coke (kids/marriages/businesses) coke has actually been chosen over it all?? its so hard to accept.
if you take him back, he will do it again – hes getting no help, hes not willing to actually take action and change, believe me, you will be in this exact position next month, the month after.. all will be going well, youll get your hopes up and bam itll all come crashing down.
for your own sanity and stress – i would take a step back, which i know is hard (as youre pregnant) but honestly do it for yourself, as it will make you ill.
he will say anything to make you think hes giving it all up but just remember it isnt that easy – you cant just give it up when youre an addict! he will say hes getting help etc he will beg and make promises – ive been there, and you wanna believe them because you love them.
unless he really truly gets help and hits rock bottom – he wont change, he needs to WANT to change and go rehab/meetings and make HUGE changes
i know its not the advice you probably want to hear.. but i was you just not pregnant – it went on for years, dont do it to yourself or your child as you will be the one left picking up the pieces
xxxxxxx