Hi Amski 12 your story is identical as mine ….. I’m being made homeless and my ex husband cocaine addict did nothing to help . To help him come off drugs and Alcohol I paid a lot of his debts off and helped him financially thinking it would load the stress off him and he would stop turning to drugs but it just made things worse. We were constantly arguing and he became very violent . He would smash things up around the house and my kids would witness it all. I would always be left with bruises cuts and he would storm out. Many occasions Iv kicked him out then a few days later he would calm down and start sobbing telling me how sorry he was and promise he would never do it again . I’d fall for it because I guess I loved him and cared for him at the time . Then a few days later he would see his friends and have a sniff and start all over again with the dramas ..got worse .. he would turn his phone off and be out all night and I’d be worried sick up all night thinking he is seeing someone else having an affair. Anxiety is an understatement the level of stress was immense.. I seeked professional help and counselling as I couldn’t manage with daily house chores and taking care of my children’s needs. I ended up soo depressed and became that close to suicidal . I was often let down by him and his promises were all lies and he even started pawning valuable sentimental items in to feed his habit. He would demand money from me and when I finally refused he just lashed out and left . He would manipulate me and make me feel guilty for not helping him. I did everything in my power to help him stop because I loved him but let me tell you there is nothing you can do it’s all down to the addict but he refused so finally I’m soo happy without him and I stopped all contacts with him .(my Two children are not to him thank god) after 6 years finally I left him . Best decision Iv ever made . Feel like Iv got my life back now and my children are very happy.
