I’ve decided to do the same and leave him for good this time. Tonight was the final straw, I don’t know why but every time he does it im always surprised, upset and hurt. He told me he didn’t want to see me tonight due to being tired which I got my back up straight away then to find out at 4pm that he was sat by himself doing it. The best of it is He’s recently started accusing me of cheating on him which is definatly linked with the drug taking ect. He has an appointment this week with his doctor but has told me he doesn’t want to go and that he can do it by himself. That to me says it all, that he’s happy doing what he’s doing and won’t change for anyone. He’s also told me previously that he will kill himself whilst on drugs and even sat on the bed with me with a knife threatening to slit his own wrists obviously didn’t do it but I don’t know what his gain was from it. I need some of your strength as the only reason I’ve gone back in the past is because I’m soft and always see the best in people. I’m starting to question is this the real him and he’s hid it so well for so long and now I’m pregnant and have some sort of long term connection with him it’s okay being himself because I can’t do anything about it.
