Sorry danman I was going to type something but god knows what I got side tracked . I love reading your comments because they really have helped me a lot as I have gathered from your posts that you are a cocaine users and have had help and are still doing your best to come off it and come clean .
I think you know exactly what the user addict is going through and what on the other hand you can understand what their loved ones are experiencing.
I’m not a user nor do I drink , but my ex husband had pawned in his wedding ring for money and
Our wedding anniversary present Which i gifted him (Tag watch ) Can you tell me please do you think I meant nothing to him and our marriage meant nothing for him that he got soo desperate for drugs that he actually dropped soo low and did that .
By the way I was married to him at the time when he pawned it in and I did not come to know about it until one day I noticed it was missing on him and when I questioned him he got very frustrated and defensive accusing me of behaving like a mother to him always pestering him to wear it etc and questioning him .. then he had many excuses where he must have misplaced it.. even to the extent that he swore on every single member of his family’s life to convince me he wasn’t lying then a few weeks down the line I find the documents of the pawned items.
It totally broke me .. he could actually do that and lie to me not that it was a first …
Anyway what I want to know does an addict have no sentimental values for items like that before their drug habit. ???????????????
He cried and cried to me later and told me how much he regretted it and apologised but it means shit to me .
He accused me of putting him down all the time for not helping financially and put the blame on me that he did it for us to raise money on a day when we were low ..
I don’t think so because I worked full time and always had my own money when he was the loser with no job just scrounging off other people to get by ….
sorry I’m getting a bit carried away now ..,