Thanks for sharing your story. I’m sorry to read that you are having a tough time because of your husband’s cocaine addiction.
If you would like some support for yourself you might like to contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that provides support for people who are living with the impact of a partner’s addiction. We could offer you one of our trained and experienced people to talk with if you get in touch. May be speaking to one of them would help you to know what to do next and find out what other help is available to you.
You can contact The Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.