I have recently been in the same position as you and he pushed me away also. He got anti depressants and never took them, he got offered counselling and never went. I asked him to go to CA but he thinks he’s too much of a snob for that. I offered him 14k out the house and he refused saying that money is kids’ future but now that we are completely finished he’s taking half the equity out the house. He lied and manipulated me for 8 years, I only found out about his addiction last sept. There has also been other women because the drug makes you feel good and he thought he was in invisible and went with other women obviously feeling horny on it. It affected our sex life for few years but I just thought we were just busy and tired with life ect and he has always has low moods anyway but his depression became worse with the drug and he is very nasty and vile and degraded me all the time.
You cannot help anyone who doesn’t want to help themselves and unfortunately it is very hard to come off this drug.
I’m sorry you’re going through this but my advice is to run and never look back because your husband has probably already cheated also and I know it’s not nice to hear but it comes hand in hand with cocaine, if he’s not done it already, it will happen eventually