Rani123, I’m so sorry to hear this! My ex told me same thing that he wants nothing to do with me and has blamed me for him taking coke too then he blames himself then he blames me again then he said I bored the shit out of him and that’s why he took it and he wants away from me.
Listen, their heads must be full of mush considering how it’s made with petrol, cement and bleach like chemicals! Yeh it may make them feel good and they think they’re the king of the world when they’re out partying and getting attention from other women, but these other women aren’t nagging them as they see it maybe because us wives ask them to do something at home or do something with kids. The coke makes them live in a fantasy world and they think they’re 21 again. They only want to come back to us wives for their stability. They’re not worth it in that case and your ex has proved that! So has his family for that matter and I’m in the same boat with the family situation.
I hope you have a lot of support around you because you will need it, this isn’t easy, it’s the hardest thing I’ve had to go through in my life!
Don’t know where you live but surely housing, women’s aid or some charity is available to house you and kids?
Much love to you and the kids x