Hi. Unfortunately I am now an addict for 3 years and over 40!
It took me off guard as I was fighting depression and this seemed to help.
I can confirm that although you still love your family it without doubt takes a bit of your soul and makes you extremely manipulative and cold and your sole purpose is to get coke, talk about coke or factor in when you can next take it. Its awful and exceptionally hard to give up.
It really is the devils food