Retroheadz, it is sad but true and I know it, which is what makes my predicament so difficult. If I tell my family, everyone’s lives will be torn apart again, especially hers and mine, I could potentially face a broken marriage which I really don’t want. I’ve tried to talk to her today but she’s not in the stage of the cycle where she is wanting change, I’ve kinda told her I can’t carry on like this and that’s it’s not fair on everyone and pointed to the fact she can’t live with me longer term if things don’t change. She was pretty unresponsive and said ‘I don’t know what you want me to say’ this doesn’t feel like her talking as we’ve had stages where she’s been desperate for my help. As awful as this is I almost want something to happen so that everyone will find out but that it hasn’t come from me, I can’t cope with the guilt of not telling, but I can’t cope with the guilt if I do. I feel so desperate, the days are getting harder and more unbearable and I’m hanging onto life by a thread.
