Reply To: Codine

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silentheart
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Hi Retroheadz,

Thank you for your reply. I have come to terms I am an addict. Rationing till my next pack, hiding it from people, basing my life around it. I crave the safe warmth it gives me but this is ridiculously out of control. Last week I lied to the doctors surgery and told them i needed my repeat prescription early as I was going on holiday for 3 weeks. I got it and was excited like a child at Christmas.

Yesterday I managed to only take 10 tablets. It got to 11pm and my brain was telling me to take more but I took a sleeping tablet instead.

I was wondering if the sleeping tablets will help with the restless legs when I stop the tablets?

I just know if I tell my husband he will belittle me like a child and I think that will push me further in to block it out. I contacted a drug service and while explaining to them my problem they just kept telling me it will cost £7600 for a 10 week program and I just felt it was more money led than actual help and the reviews confirmed it.

I have been crying on and off since I first admitted my problem yesterday because reality has hit. Reality was already there but admitting it out loud has made it all the more real. Sorry for the long reply, I just seem to be throwing out what ever is in my mind so if it makes no sense I apologise.

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