Hi Jasminnie,
If you would like some further support for yourself please contact us at Icarus Trust. we are a charity that provides support for people in your situation. If you get in touch you would be able to talk to one of our experienced people which might help you to find the way forward.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best.