So odd nearly all their behaviours are the same and eventually they all do/say or act the same way. So it must definitely be the coke.
We’ve always loved holidays, me more than him as I always need something to look forward to. Last year we lived apart, I was pregnant but couldn’t take anymore, he’d become reckless, even driving drugged up with our kids in the car. Obviously I didn’t know any of this at the time, I thought he had anxiety. Well I told him I wanted to go on holiday, he told me to go alone as he didn’t deserve one, he was a scum bag etc. I think now this was just so he could use for the week. Well I booked to go to Gran Canaria, my mum came for support and he was hysterical. He cried the whole week and was so bitter that I’d gone without him. See this is the kind of crazy mental abuse you have to put up with.
I love my husband, but as I said his past behaviour has made me feel differently about him. I’m hoping in time, that goes and I can feel the same as I once did towards him. However I will not go through it again! I can’t! I refuse to go back to the train wreck that I was also! Xx