Oh by the way, my husband never had any kind of mental illness before cocaine. He was literally the model man. He never got down about anything, he treated me like a princess and was the most perfect father. Cocaine completely changed him.
I’ve read that the changes in the brain once a cocaine addiction takes hold makes ordinary things feel crap, it’s only when they take the coke that they feel some kind of pleasure. Then according to my husband it’s only the first two lines that are good and the rest makes you feel awful but you keep on doing it!
I didn’t believe him at first and thought he just had no willpower, it used to infuriate me at the destruction it had caused and despite everything he wouldn’t stop!
Now I know it’s couldn’t stop! It really is evil stuff! Xx