Hi Jules1980 thanks for checking in.
I resonate with you so much. The constant anxiety, checking where he is 12 times a day, making sure all the bank cards are locked away means that I’m in constant fight or flight mode.
I’m at the point where I just want some peace to be honest. I’m getting to the stage where I want him to leave my home.
I don’t know how I will feel when he leaves or how my children will react but I want to be free of this now. I’m done giving my heart and soul to someone who doesn’t even care.
He won’t use again for another 3 months, that’s how his addiction is at the moment but I can’t go through the process of forgiving him again just to get my heart broken for the 50th time. It’s like waiting to be punched in the face.
Have you ever considered breaking free of it all?
J x