Hi Matt and hi everyone
Ive seen the other side. I’m the wife and soon to be ex-wife and who has full responsibility of a 9 year old, a big house, two dogs and a full time job.
He is now off cocaine, but he put me and my son at risk 100s of times over the years. He even spent £40k on the stuff.
You can get there. I did pay for private rehab, but he said that AA and NA was what really helped him change his life around.
He has changed as a person and he is still aggressive by nature and still sends me vile messages but I guess he is hurting that our 9 year old no longer wants a relationship with him.
You can turn your life around if you are willing to do it. You need to throw yourself into your recovery and start a whole new chapter in your life and that includes new friends, family and new surroundings.
I wish you the best of luck