Hi mate.
We’ve never spoke but I’ve read lots of your replies on here to other people, you’ve been compassionate, helpful and understanding of addiction. Mine if different to yours, my poison is codeine, taken to numb my mental health issues.
Don’t see this as you’ve failed anything, relapse is all part of recovery, i’d put money on the fact that most people with addiction relapse. You’ve not failed, you’ve just had a hiccup.
Keep going man, you are doing great. Also – staying on here doesn’t make you a hypocrite, you can still help others.