Thank you Rev for your kind words. My son’s addiction has affected me deeply. As I’m soon to be 60 my main fear is who will be there for my son when I’m not? My health has suffered and my confidence. I used to think I could deal with anything life threw at me but this has licked me. I’m so so tired of the worry, the stress and, up until joining this forum, the total isolation of being a mother to a drug addict. Since my mum died 3 years ago the role of family matriarch has fallen on my shoulders. My husband is retired and has heart and arthritis/chronic rheumatism and I have to work full time to support us as he only receives the state pension. I’ve lost count of the days where I wish I could stay in bed and shut it all off but you can’t shut your mind off or the images of tragedy. All this happens whilst my son is happily getting high/stoned. Oh how I hate drugs and what they do to the user and the loved ones in the background struggling to come to terms with it all.
I’ve decided I must try and live for me. I cannot change my son’s way of thinking or the life he prefers to live (for now). I will continue with Adfam because mixed in with all the pain and suffering others are enduring there are glimmers of hope and success and they are worth their weight in gold in terms of inspiration and feelings of happiness for those succeeding in battling and winning.