Hi MaguMum,
I am in a similar situation myself, my husband is addicted to cocaine and alcohol. The lies are unbearable as you really do question every single thing they say in the end. My husband is about to go into rehab for the 3rd time and although I’ve consistently supported him so far I am now at breaking point.
You have to ask yourself is this the life you really want? You spend so long concentrating on them on and what they need to be happy/to be well you forget yourself in the process. You stick by them as you have faith they will get well and you married him because he’s a great person and you were happy before. But you do also need to start thinking about your future and happiness, you deserve a wonderful life to.
It will take a lot of bravery to break the cycle but I’m not sure for me I’ll ever regain the trust that should be there in a marriage.
Do you ever also feel resentful towards them? But then you feel like a terrible person for feeling that way? I know I do!
There are other people out there who are going though similar experiences so never feel alone x