Hi Ginger
Thank you so much for posting your story. I really feel for you. It’s so hard what you are going through and it’s easy to feel so alone. It’s good that you are gaining support from people on the blog. You are important enough to matter!!
If you feel that you would like some help from us please contact us at The Icarus Trust. we are a charity that provides support for people in your situation. we have experienced trained people you could talk with if you feel that it would be helpful, and they can also signpost you to what other help is available in your area. You don’t have to be alone.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.