Hi Ajx
I’m so sorry to hear how your partner’s addiction is affecting you. It’s awful to hear that you are having panic attacks. This must be so hard for you.
If you think it would help please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers support to people like yourself who are having to deal with a partner’s addiction. We can offer a listening ear from one of our trained and experienced people who you could talk with.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck to you.