Wow… uni? A huge step…. and you’ve had some success’s? We’ll still always have the “what ifs and whys” though won’t we.
I’ve been going to a family support group once a week which I’ve found amazing and so supportive, they look at things like enabling, guilt, acceptance etc…. really helping me to see that there are things I can’t change, and how for me to be ok with him not being ok… if that makes sense.
Still miss him like crazy, and carrying around a broken heart is really hard work! However, he claims he’s been clean for weeks, yet refuses to do a drug test so we’re all still in limbo, waiting for one of us to give in. I’ve wanted to… but know I can’t.
I long for him to lie next to me with a hot choc watch monsters inc and fall asleep in bed … just like he did when he was 6!!! However he’s 21 so that’s not really possible. Ha!
Thanks for replying, good to know that in some form or another we’re making it to tomorrow. Take care. X