I feel like I need to change my behaviour. I have sat and had a few drinks tonight which I feel is wrong but he’s gone to a meeting so it’s not in front of him. I feel I need to change myself…. I watch TV and see someone with an addiction and all of a sudden it dawns on me my husband is an addict…. It makes me really sad and I was almost annoyed that he was going to a meeting tonight. I want to support him I really do but I just still feel annoyed with him and myself for not noticing. It’s like a realisation period I feel I am in, thst my husband has a serious problem with cocaine and that also makes me sad
I just want a normal life which I suppose we all do so I will have to see what happens over the next few weeks
I have bought some drug tests as well off ebay which i am going to spring on him in a few weeks. I feel like such an idiot even typing thst but it’s what I have done. Thanks again for chatting to me