Hi there, thanks for responding. I’m now at the point where I’m living alone with the kids. Im paying for everything whilst he’s living in a crummy room in a house share.
My husband is more interested if I’m going to be going on dates with other people then the real issue of sorting himself out. You have to laugh don’t you.
I think my husband wants to change but just doesn’t get it. He doesn’t understand the dedication to turning your life around. He thinks stopping by himself or attending a few meetings will be it. I think that attending meetings has to be for life in order to stay clean. Apparently anyone can stop it’s staying stopped that’s the hard bit. My husband can stop for 6-7 months from willpower alone then thinks he’s cured then the addiction takes hold again and he hits it so hard like he’s never stopped.
I don’t feel anxious like I once did, my life is peaceful without him. Like you say I love my old husband but that person died when he became an addict!
I’m fed up of jumping back on the rollercoaster, getting my hopes up then it all happing again. No one can live with an active addict, not without making yourself crazy you can’t!
I’m now just concentrating on me, for once in my life and surprisingly I’m doing ok. My life will flourish compared to his. A life with drugs is no life at all!
Hugs to everyone who is dealing with an addicted loved one! It’s hell on earth xxx