Hi,
Thanks for posting. I’m so sorry to hear about your son and how hurt you are feeling.
You sound really strong but if you do need any support, you may want to contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people dealing with the effect of a family member’s drug or alcohol use. Please contact us if you would like to talk with one of our trained and experienced people.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best.