When I was a little girl I had so many dreams,
I’d become a vet with a nice house, car and I’d be free,
My husband would be successful and 2 children we would have,
But sadly life had other plans,
For I met heroin at just 15, it was amazing and made me feel I could breath,
I was cool and had my own money,
Life was amazing when I had my honey,
Then one day I had made plans, instead of meeting with him I was going to see my pals,
Heroin was not happy and he would make me pay,
How dare I go without him even if it was for 1 day?
He made me ill he made me sick he make me pray for just 1 hit,
So I gave in, I begged and I pleaded just 1 more hit is what I needed.
Where did this come from? I wasn’t an addict, how come this be? Why do I feel this way when I dont have it?
From then on my life was a mess.
I would walk for hours trying to find him, stealing, lying and cheating just to feed my habit.
All I could think about was where my next fix was coming from,
I remember the days I would want to die, I didnt want this life I just wanted to fly,
At least if I was gone my family could then move on.
Then one day God looked down and he answered my prayers,
But before he brought me home he agreed to give me a final scare.
I woke up in hospital and I was free, you see theyd medicated me.
They told me no more would I need to beg,
For they would simply give me some meds,
They would help me break my habit, my addiction no more would I need to carry,
I should have been over the moon but I was scared.
I didn’t know what to do.
I loved heroin and when he was around I knew he loved me, it was just hard for him to be found.
But then I realised it just wasn’t meant to be.
I took each day as it came, I would take my meds without delay.
It was hard to let go and I felt so alone.
Before I knew it my life had moved on, no more thinking of what had gone on.
I was free and able to fly,
My prayers had been answered and I didn’t need a line.
Now I’m back on my lifes path,
Following my dreams and I know it sounds daft.
So many still trapped and feel your alone.
But your not, we each have a home.
Theres help out there you just need to ask,
Once your ready to leave him, it will be a bloody hard task,
But life is waiting for you as it was me,
Today is the day, just ask and you will see.